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"I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!" - Alice, Alice In Wonderland.
I've been..THINKING..

I've been thinking about CCA issues & other issues last night.
I've been thinking about changing CCA.
I've been thinking about why I've been skipping trainings.
I've been thinking about whether I'll have courage to continue on in my current CCA if I havw not been accepted.
I've been thinking about how I'm going to face my seniors if I manage to quit successfully.
I've been thinking about whether I've made the right choice.

I've been thinking about promises.
I've been thinking about the deceit in people.
I've been thinking about trust.
I've been thinking about whether I'll ever trust someone.
I've been thinking about sadness.
I've been thinking about fear.
I've been thinking about acceptance.
I've been thinking of rejection and tears.

Sometimes,I wonder,what's going on with this world?
I also wonder,what's going wrong in MY world?
Is it my fault to begin with?
Or is it human nature?
Or maybe,the others who were close to me?

Once I wonder if I'm in a dream.
I wasn't sure the direction I was going to take,from here.
It wasn't clear to me,AT ALL.
Despair,agony,pain,betrayal,lies,tears-and more.
When can I stop experiencing these?
Why is it,that all these happen?
Wh is it,that human nature is so terrible?
Why is it,that there are so many "WHYS?" in my life.
Why is it that there isn't a world that has lesser "pollution".

I don't know how to answer all of the "WHYS" that I know of.
But one thing's for sure,
I have not stop searching for the answer,
I'm still in search,
And I know I'm not going to stop anytime now.
I've not stop wondering,neither have I stop thinking,
How this world would be like,
If there's lesser of ALL people's fears..

Maybe it wasn't meant to be,
Our fate,that is;