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"I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!" - Alice, Alice In Wonderland.
Pills.

She stood by the door,staring at her mother who was in rage,while thinking of a solution for the problem.Silence was there,the only sound heard was the sound of salesmen advertising on the television.She looked like she was thinking deep,you could see that from her solemn expression.
She was thinking,alot and she felt her heart sank.Was there a solution to this problem?This problem,who wreacked havoc in her peaceful life.Her heart,was faced with regret,fear and angst.Sheopened her mouth,slowly,forming some words,that was her solution.She didn't bother to think much of the solution before saying it out,becuase she has come to a decision and she knew she ain't going to fulfil it.
She turned her head,forced herself to out on a smile and speak with enthusiasm, "Goodbye,Mum!" She said with a forced smile.She exited from the room at the speed of light and started to let her tears flow.
Back in her mother's bedroom,her mother was feeling suspicious about her smile and enthusiasm.Was she going to do something silly later,she thought.It was weird to seee your child smiling and being cheerful after broading over such a dreadful problem,and also saying goodbye instead of goodnight.Unable to figure out the reason,she turned in.
Her beloved child,in her room,was crying uncontrobally.Her sadness,fear,and angst was all revealed at that moment,only to herself.She didn't allow others to see her weak side.She sobbed herself to sleep,and she had a weird dream.In the dream,she held a bottle of pills in her hands and she was dressed in a white gown.Her surrounding was filled with mist and fog and the only figure she saw was the back of her mother lying on a bed.
She awoke,from that strange dream soon after,and started to approach the kitchen.She took out an unknown bottle of pills that looked dangerous,and she poured lots of pills into her mouth,she,herself wondering how she did it.
"it'll soon be over..soon.." She murmured to herself as she sat beside her sleeping mother.She didn't realise that her precious child had came to her room.Her dear mother was sleeping next to her and she to,laid down.
The next morning,when her sleepy mother woke up,she was surprised to see her beloved child sleeping next to her,and tried to wake her up.But no matter how she tried,her child didn't respond.With a heavy heart,she knew that it was really a goodbye between her child and her.
Her child was clutching to a notebook in her hands.Her thoughts and feelings were written in it.On the last page of the notebook,there was a note,that was yet to be finished:
"O Lady of the night,
Who seek thy revenge,
Has found thy bed of crimson joy,
And thou,does she destroys..."



Okay,so that's what I just felt like writing suddenly.
the thy and thou are kind of mixed-up cos' I'm not really sure of the meaning.
The above,are my thoughts and feelings,please don't mistake it for something written for no reason.If she know what happened to me,you'll know why I wrote this,if you don't,so be it..so be it..

"Pills,I feel like taking them now;"