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"I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!" - Alice, Alice In Wonderland.
Long naggy post.

Yoho world.
I've finally decided to do a blogpost.
Typing on iPhone to blog really isn't much fun, it's actually quite tiring.
Anyway, life has been pretty normal, but I shall be naggy anyway.
And of cos, I'm amused by some happenings as usual.

Let's see, prelims are coming soon.
Next week in fact.
And the strangest thing is, I'm lacking motivation.
Is it because I know that it's a killer?
I don't know.
But it just doesn't seem right that I'm not feeling very stress.

And somehow I want O levels to come.
I want it out of my life asap.
It helped me discover that I don't like being tied down to something.
Which probably explains why I want to go to a poly.
I'm sick of living like a mechanized robot.

I can't possibly endure years of this.
Life, it's short.
I want to enjoy it while I still can.
I want to feel the breeze of the wind and just spend hours staring into green spaces.
Isn't it weird when I'm realistic
I still seek joy in what I do.
And that's why I'm trying my best to enjoy studying, and even enjoy doing math.

Ppl tell me that I'm too straightforward, taking up too much challenges and risks.
Is it true? I don't know.
All i know is that I need to live my life to the fullest.
If I fall, stumble, get crushed, I will get up.
I'll follow my heart, just for a while, before I return to my senses.

Ok, moving on.
I'm getting worried recently, dpa doesn't seem to be working out.
It may sound weird to you but, dpa- I do it so that I won't be tied down to my image.
Somehow my other family members think that I'll only succeed if I follow the path set by them.
But that path, it's full of unhappiness. So unhappy, but it's as safe as it can be.
I want to enjoy my youth.
Follow my passion, yet prove to them that I can do well too, without rigidly following the path set by them.
Doesn't it remind you of the poem "the path not taken"?
Hah.

Cosplaying, it's slowing down for now.
But I'm still doing it anyway.
New muses continue to seek me out, but I'll just hang on to them for now.
Leave them for next year, I'll see how.

Amusing things happen in the cosplay world.
Especially ppl who are
1) stalkers
2) newbies
3) thinking of joining

3 amuses me constantly. Especially ppl around me.
If you're serious about doing it, show me.
At least know what you can and can't do.
That's the basis of doing a good cosplay.
Yes, go wtfbbq- but that's the truth.
And frankly speaking, you need some kind of connection in this world.
Either that, or stun everyone.
Then it'll come to you naturally.

I've been brainstorming about jobs recently.
What jobs I'll get when I go poly,
And what job to get after Os'.
I came up with a to do list after Os'.

1) cosplay (to my heart's content, yez, I know some of you can't stand me)
2) get a job
3) learn bass
4) learn to sew
5) photoshopping skills much
6) makeupppppp skills
7) travel
8) study for poly
9) get ready for prom
10) get artbooks!!!!!

Ok. Those have no time limit.
I'll just work with my capabilities and widen my horizons slowly.
Slowly but surely, we'll get there.