Talk to my hand prz.
{ Sunday, September 12, 2010
4:09 AM }
Okay, I don't know if I've done this post before,
But whatever, I'm still going to do it.
Insomnia last night made me have the sudden motivation to blog.
Cos' it gave me time to
think.
Lately I haven't been talking to myself, which is mad saddening for myself. boo. Anyways, gonna rant first - I wanted to talk about this weeks ago.
So you see someone performing on stage, dancing, and you, the noob who can't dance, criticizes the ppl on stage.
Uhm,
EXCUSE ME?
What the hell gave you the idea that you have the rights to criticize that person?
I mean, yes, their dance moves may not be perfect, they may not be following the supposed moves of the song,
But isn't that alright because it's a DANCE?Don't give me the bullcrap and tell me that anyone can learn and perfect it by learning it on youtube.If you're that fucking awesome, fucking master it and show me your moves.If you can't, and I know you can't (because you can't even be compared to them in terms of attitude and yes, your body) , don't be so fucking obnoxious.Like srsly, what's your damn problem?
DANCE- it's a sport of enjoyment.
Why do ppl pick it up?
Cos' it's almost like an expression of freedom, and you can improvise it.
Like, wtf, what made you think that the dancers must follow the supposed dance moves that come along with a song?
It's like me telling you,
HEY, YOU'RE IN THAT CLIQUE WITH GUYS IN IT, SO YOU MUST TURN INTO A GUY.I don't understand why you're so critical of EVERYTHING and ANYTHING you see.
Can't you be more encouraging?
& srsly, I'm not telling you to underestimate yourself,
But don't overestimate your abilities.
What's different between you and em' even if you master the moves?
IMHO, everything.
They don't have your snobbish attitude, & they definitely should be encouraged for having the courage to go up on stage and perform despite knowing that there are ppl like you.
The way you act sometimes remind me of Aunt A.
GROW UP. Why not give em' a hand? Who knows, you probably need one one day.Moving on.
Thinking time with the person who was suffering from Insomnia.
I had so much thoughts going on in my mind yesterday that I can't possibly pen them down.
If I say thoughts, they're more like worries and doubts.
Yesterday fights went on in the house again.
I know, it's common.
But I can't stand the fucktard who thinks he's the father figure when he ain't.
I mean- obviously. When we fight with you, it's because you, have stepped pass your boundaries.
I can't even stand the sight of him nowadays, what to do? -_-
I think my mum changed my thoughts about love.
I think there was a time when I believed that someone can actually survive on love.
But somehow, along the way, this belief vanished into thin air.
My mum says that I'm too realistic now.
Well, she was the one who puts that thought into my mind.
I'm not saying that there isn't love,
I'm saying that there is.
But I don't believe that I will survive on it.
On contrary, I believe that I'll do so much better without it.
It's this thing in my head-
most guys want your money, if not your body.
Sometimes I think that ppl will probably end up marrying that guy that's like your best friend.
Cos' honestly, you just need someone who understands you, no?
The idea of love seems far-fetched to me.
It's either you get it, lose it, and fear it or.
You gain it, have it, but fear losing it.
The latter results in some ppl being selfish and not considering other ppl's feelings- check out my mum.
I don't think she knows that she has made such an influence on me.
& I don't hope for her to know.
But I think this system of belief is so strong that I kinda go -___- everytime I see a despo.
Srsly, wtf- I think ppl can do better than that.
It's an irony- you think it exists, but at the same time you think it doesn't.
This complicated feeling srsly sucks.
Then the other thing is about future career and O lvls and such stuff.
I'm just not sure what's going to happen.
Motivation seems to be running out.
Now how?
& because I
LOVE to think when I'm having insomnia,The more I think, the more worried I get.
I have even thought till UNIVERSITY.
LOL.
& I even had this vision of having my own flat somewhere far from Singapore.
It's weird, but meh.
I think it won't happen cos' I want to support my mum.
But it's awful when I see that fucktard.
& I certainly don't want my future salary to be spent on him.
IMHO, He should just fuck off and die. My mum believes that I won't support her next time, but I know I will.
That's why it's frustrating- like, why do you think I look like I don't want to support you?
Well, it's because of that fucktard beside you,
I may sound evil but I hope he _____ before I earn.
YES. PLS ______.
& there's another about my health.
But cos' it's personal, I don't want to talk about it.
Ok la, incompleted work waiting for me.
And also, nom nom time.
I think I'll blog again when I get the motivation.
LATA.
I am a tired human being.