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"I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!" - Alice, Alice In Wonderland.
Lengthy post

An idea is like a ghost,
It never gets to you till you speak to it.

You know, recently I've been thinking and talking about lots of things to 2 particular person.
I guess they're the only two that I feel like talking serious stuff to.

Next week is the last week for me in PL.
I don't feel sad or anything, just nostalgia.
I'll miss the ppl, but I know I'll try and hold on to them.
It's the uncertainty ahead that worries me.
I've been thinking way too much for my own good, so much so that I'm losing focus and control.
OCD OCD OCD, you ppl say I have it.
So that explains the mounting uneasiness.

10 years in the PL family.
Yes, I shall use that word for once in my whole life. (achievement much, yay).
I've never been very very happy in this entire 10 years.
There was pain and shame, yes, there was.
But I won't deny the times of happiness that I have spent with my friends either.

Even though I don't tell them everything about my life,
Or sometimes I piss them off very badly,
Or when I give them the cold shoulder,
I'll never hesitate to let them know that I'm not happy, mostly.

Ok, you must be thinking,
" Now what the fuck are you talking about?".
Let me explain.
I don't talk to you, unless I want to talk to and feel like talking to you.
& I don't show you how I feel, unless I think you deserve to know how I feel.
I can easily put on a mask in front of you, it's no problem.
But because I see you as a friend, I want you to know, because I care,
Because I want to connect with you.

I want to keep this friendship.
Let's mantain it.
Cos' it's easy to break something, it's fragile- but it's because it's fragile that's why ppl bother.
I'm a coward for hiding away feelings, or just not feeling anything.
But I thought I should just tell you guys what I think about you, what makes me think about you, and why I want to mantain my friendship with you.
If I sound like a bitch, then sorry.
Oh &, this is only to ppl who I talk to rather alot.
So yeah.
& don't ask about certain things.

To Crys:

We first met in P1, you were the only one in school who didn't cut your long hair.
I thought you were fun. It turned out you were, and you still are.
Things changed when we were in P6.
I'm sorry for the way things turned out- you were mad at me, and I was also angry at you.
The thing is, it's troubling to see the way you were treated.
You deserved better.
It was my fault for what you went through. So I apologise for that.
You taught me not to judge, so I guess that's the reason why I can talk to anyone about anything. Thank you for that.

When I look at balloons, I think of you.
Balloons are happy things- they're always floating. You seem happy now, and I hope it stays the same. Other than that, I always remembered what you wrote on LW's balloon. It makes me laugh, everytime I look at it.

We've known each other for years, I've even lost count.
You're such an optimistic person, it's fun to hang out with you.
You're different from most people, you're open to stuff.
Sometimes you make me pissed, but I get where you're coming from.
So I want to mantain this friendship, because I've known you for years, and I want to continue knowing you.
YOU'RE COOL~

LW:

You had the FML look on your face when I first saw you.
But you turned out really friendly.
You're the few rare person that I don't really get mad at.
I know that there are times when you get pissed at me- I can sense it.
But because I'm the kind of person who tends to hide my feelings, I can't do anything.
You're one of the 2 that I talk to srsly, because you listen to me without judging too much.

When I look at math homework,
I'll think about you.
Cos' you're one of those rare people that are SUPER hardworking.
You're srs motivation dood. :)

I want to mantain this friendship because, YOU'RE THOSE RARE FEW THAT MOTIVATES AND LISTEN. SO YOU'RE AWESOME. :3
We've promised to stay in touch next yr by meeting up each month.
Keep your promise!

To jess:

You're those super loyal friends.
I remember that you misunderstood me in sec1, and scolded me.
I was SOOOO pissed at you.
But then I realised that you're actually really friendly.

You remind me of carrot.
Because your email says so.
& you're super lengthy.
You mouldy carrot. :D

I want to mantain this friendship, because you're a super fun shopping buddy.
You're also always on twitter,
It's easy to communicate with you yo.
& you're super fun to talk to. You rock.

To Shan:

You, I don't know how we begin to talk so much.
but your house is super fun to be in.
You're super fun to watch movies with,
You're super fun to disturb.
I LOVE TO DISTURB YOU.
I'LL DISTURB YOU EVEN AFTER WE GRADUATE. :D

When I look at you,
I think of movies.
Like duh, you're my MOVIE BUDDY.
The most awesome of them all.
I really appreciate you cos' you turned down your date for me. /so touched. :3

This friendship, should continue.
Because you're my jie in our family tree remember?
I'll jio you for movies next year also.
I'll stay single for you! /just kidding. LMAO.

To rach:

We used to always play in Pri school.
You were...short. And you still are.
But don't worry, you're special cos' of that, lol!
Your laughter is FUNNY.
& that's what I distinctively think of when I see you.

You remind me of chocolates.
Cos' you always tell me, "my house have lots of extra chocs, you want?".
Yes rach, of cos I want them.
WHY HAVEN'T YOU PASSED THEM TO ME?
/i just suddenly remember that i haven't ate the choc lw gave me.

Let's continue this friendship,
Cos you're one of the most brainless random person that I know.
You entertain me when I'm bored, you pup seal~

To rakel:

I'm sorry, I had to choose this color cos you're in ARCHER. bleh. D<
Anyways, you looked like you were bored when I first talked to you.
& you still look bored now.
I think you're a super tolerant person, I'm amazed at how tolerant you are.
But I srsly want you to explode once in a while.
DO IT RAKEL, DO IT.

You remind me of...wigs.
Cos you always tell me "I'm going to go collect my wig.".
...You wig collector.
Thanks for keeping my wig for me also! :)

Let's mantain this friendship cos you're the ultimate stoner.
We'll stone together.
& I CAN COMPLAIN TO YOU.
AWESOME MUCH? Don't worry, You can complain to me too. I don't mind~

Yuka:

You, somehow we got along.
We talk alot- I talk to you about srs things alot.
Because you give 2 perspectives, I really like that about you.
Let's continue with the srs talks! :)

You remind me of yukatas.
I guess it's because of your name.
Let's visit Japan someday, I'll disturb you till you die.
I'm so going into NP, I'll give you no peace!

Let's mantain this frienship cos, you're simply the kind of friends that are there for ppl to keep.
You always say that ppl move on, and leave others behing,
But this time, we'll move on together~
We're all in this together.
You're uncertain, I'm uncertain, We'll talk stuff out, and solve problems.
/pinch your fats. :3

So peeps, that's all I got to say.
Let's work hard for our last lap, jy us!
ILY GUYS! :3