Pulling strings.
{ Sunday, January 30, 2011
6:33 AM }
Now tell me honestly,
How many of you think that it's ok to pull strings to get to where you want to be?
I find it just lowdown.
Ppl who pull strings to get to where they are,
should just work for the devil probably have a lack of integrity in my head.
Why is this so?
Well- first off, if you don't make the cut, you're just stealing the chance from another person.
And it's even worse if you gloat about it.
If you even have a conscious, you would realize that it won't make you feel good by forcefully taking away another person's opportunity.
Oh, and if you don't feel like it's wrong- I just proved to you that you lack conscious in a certain part of your heart.
What triggered me to write this?
I've realized that so many ppl around me feel that it's ok to pull strings to get what they want.
It's even worse if they take advantage of their relations, aka carrying out this action.
And this itself irks me.
It makes me feel disgusted.
If you're someone that actually got their chance taken away from a person that's undeserving,
You'll probably be so incredibly mad about it.
Seriously? It's already an unfair world out there, even if you do have the chance to pull strings, you don't have to do it.
You don't have to make the world even more unfair and unjust.
If you want something badly,
Please- achieve it yourself.
It's only then that ppl will appreciate your achievements, not through some
shit-ass stunts that you pulled off with your kins.
Ok, got this part off.
It's the above stuff I said that irritates me the most.
Other than that, it's another thing I've realized that makes me incredibly...confused.
Let's just put it this way.
I've come to a point where I realized that some friendships are rather superficial and shallow.
You can't talk to these friends about certain stuff because they simply cannot communicate with others efficiently.
They can't read the atmosphere, they can't tell when you're being serious or joking, and they can't even tell when you feel uncomfortable or is in need of advice.
These friends make me realize that I simply cannot talk to them more.
It's like your friendship with them comes to a stagnant point.
There won't be any development because they just can't read your mind (figuratively).
And the worst thing is that, because they simply cannot understand what you're thinking, sometimes they rub it in even more.
I mean, just because I'm smiling, doesn't mean I'm happy.
Surely friends should understand that.
But these people just don't.
I feel like they aren't completely human in a sense.
I can't seem to communicate with ppl like that.
It's like they have their own world, and is content with you only being a visitor in that world.
Simply put, sometimes I feel like they are being selfish and lacking in an aspect of being a friend.
A friend should be someone who gives practical advices.
A friend should be someone who talks to you and knows your concerns.
A friend tries to cheer you up with an encouraging message from their heart, and not some superficial "cheer up".
A friend always put you in front of themselves (you don't party when your friend's worried, isn't that how it's suppose to be? ).
And it bothers me even more to realize that these ppl are not aware that they are losing friendships because ppl are running out of topics to talk to them about.
The friendship, if crudely put, is just shallow.
And even more so, I know ppl who put down their other "best friend" down constantly.
In my mind, I find these ppl a pain in my ass.
If you're a friend, surely you'll be more accepting.
Giving constructive advice is different from looking down on your peer.
It's confusing- how am I suppose to continue having such shallow friendships?
And the last thing that gets me annoyed?
Job hunt.
No, more like- employers who lie. I don't have to elaborate on this. D:
In any case, I'm tired from typing.
I'm thinking of how to do my 'haul' video.
Update next time then. /stomps off. D<
--
Update, cos I just got pissed off again.
My uncle. Should just stop being a prick.
He's acting like the father figure and trying to give me advice when he knows his opinions don't mean a fuck to me.
Simply because he doesn't deserve my respect.
This anger and angst teen in me is growing constantly when I stay here.
I just want to be left alone all the time,
Or just with my brother will do.
I need to move out.
Can't wait for uni.
I'll probably move out.
All I think about when I see him lately are negative thoughts.
Like, when he gets a call,
"Oh, his kid died".
Or " He got fired."
And when he seems pissed, "Ha, he'd better go off and die".
I have to go.
Before the real me gets consumed by anger and die.
IMMA DOING THIS POST AGAIN TOMORROW OR SOMETHING TO ELABORATE.
JUST YOU WAIT AND SEE.
I am a tired human being.