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"I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!" - Alice, Alice In Wonderland.

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I crave for change.
But I keep convincing myself that keeping things the same is the way to go.
It's ironical.

It's like a child who wants good grades but refuse to study for it.
I feel like that.
I want to get away- but I can't.

It's 2012, a brand new year.
As much as I want to change, I can't really do so.
My life seems to be at a stagnant point.

Maybe I should come up with new year resolutions.
I never did- and it seems like it doesn't have an effect on me at all.
What do I do to make me feel like I'm living? I really have no answer to that.

I have too much worries and grudges that I hold on to.
And as much as I say I don't care, I really do care.
In fact, I care so much that it's awful pretending to not care.
I have too much pride to let it all go.

What do I do?
What do I do?
It's like I'm just wishing for someone to sweep some spontaneous energy into my life.
But no- that's not how life works.
So what exactly am I hoping for?
I'm ridiculous.

"Don't wish, don't start,
Wishing only wounds the heart".