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"I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!" - Alice, Alice In Wonderland.
Doubt.

How do I even begin?
Call it a quarter life crisis maybe.

I'm starting to doubt people whom I consider as friends.
I see how my friends change, especially when they are in relationships.
I feel betrayed.

It's bad how for years you believe in something your friends never did take seriously- but you did.
It's almost like I've been conned.

Oh we should do that together. 
I believed. Saved.
It didn't happen.

People turn into what they first believe they would not become.
I see now that many of us have.
Many, just give in to a relationship's unreasonable demands.

Bros before hoes.
I do believe in that.
And I do believe not many can achieve that.
I've seen it, far too often, in girls.

It's strange. I feel detached, disconnected whenever a person gets attached and starts losing their thoughts.
It's like I never knew this person my whole life.
And then, when they break up, the person I once knew returns.
It's exhausting.
It's exhausting pretending to be fine with people who get caught up with emotions and lose logic.

Honestly, feeling of being betrayed- overwhelming.
Disappointed.
Ah, then I think to myself, consider yourself stupid for even treating them true.